So, some boys I know talk about putting "pussy on a pedestal" and I never really thought about it from the other side. How does the pussy feel? After utterly disappointing some young man, but not because she was wrong in anyway but because she wasn't perfect or the kind of perfect the young man wanted. That must suck.

I just want to roll so I can actually be happy at some point instead of mildly annoyed or fine all the time. I'm moving in moderations and speaking in extremes.
Whatever.
My constant battle seems to be the same as everyone else's: finding people I like, hanging out with them, finding a way to stay away from the people I don't like, finding a way not to dislike the people I like. Blech.

Things I am really into right now:
1. Tylonel Cold Daytime (Nightime sucks. Know this.)
2. Coffee
3. Frye Harness Boots
4. Peonies
5. Sweet Peas
6. Black
7. Seattle
8. Sea food

I'm trying to start seeing my parents as people, not just voices running around saying crazy things.
Many questions are being asked, and I'm steeling myself for their answers.
Summer project!

Awkwardness

Why is it that all the most awkward nights are always the ones that a. I tell stories about later and b. I have the most fun? Never is there a night when I'm completely comfortable that I am really pleased with. It's always the times that my voice goes too high and I say way too much dumb shit that I end up looking back on and laughing.
24 hour breakfast places also seem to have a really solid role in this... I'm not mad. I am a little mad that my waffle was so small tonight, though. That... needed to be said.

Todaytoday

Too much stress has been managed today! I just took a few hour long break to eat and read and clean and now I'm going to read. Hopefully tomorrow I will get most of a paper done and will have Invisible Man finished. These are the goals.

This makes me smile, though. I secretly love order, even if I'm bad at creating it. Antha, it made me think of you.

Spring WILD

Things that have annoyed me today:
1. people coming into Brook and I's room and commenting on how messy it is. Do they do this when they enter other people's homes? Does no one realize that's super rude, unless you're a mother figure? Next time I go into Amy's room I'm just going to yell that it's too clean and I can't be in there anymore. Jeez Louise.
2. people who come to concerts super drunk and make out/grind for the entire show and are icky.
3. how awesome The Black Keys are. Seriously. So awesome. My brain hurts.